Lights and Shadows

All the rage spread and turned into light. The good feeling turned into the bad one. Or was it otherwise?
I don't know. I'm not sure of anything. In fact I know nothing... You made me forget everything.
The light's fading... I'm so near the darkness I can even feel it in my heart... It's beyond my senses...
Sick of the fight. Tired of always being here, drawing unalive pictures of what my mind tells me.
My mouth remains shut. The best way to keep it all inside. Just for me...
My mind is trapped. Trapped inside this useless body, this cage. I want to break free from these chains. But I feel I can't do anything. No, I can't... There's no strenght left...
Why be like this? Why always expect something good from people, from you? Why dream? Why love?
Why not die?
Why not fall completely into shadows?
It's rising in me... it's getting stronger everyday. I can feel it shaking the walls, tearing them apart, taking away what I used to be...
Only one image remains here, getting clearer and clearer everyday... Among the few good things left, it grows significantly...
All the promises, all the hopes flew away... the wind took them... Or was it something else? Or someone else?...
That day clouds shook, the sky got dark, the lightnings touched the ground... The poison got into my veins, corrupting my heart... It's too late to stop it... Or not... Maybe one thing can stop it... One day...